Anxiety

The main reason I go to the shrinkage or the Psychologist is very high anxiety. This causes acid reflux in me, which is currently very bad. So no peppers for me. Oh well.

I have been reading books on High Sensitivity, some say this also causes high anxiety. I think it does.

I always wonder why I can't be like others, those people that nothing seems to bother them. They shrug off stuff that would make me feel horrible. Things that would haunt me, some people do not even notice. I cannot understand that.

My IBS is about the same, my hives are about the same and my rosacea is about the same.

My mother has a dog walker. This guy that I am not sure of from which he came. He is older and his mom drives him around. Update: this is a week or so later, mom had to can the dog walker, he started getting too familiar. Asking for money out of turn, telling her he was making more elsewhere, shorting her on time. Well, we were discussing a nice way to get rid of him and the Florida Gov announced a lockdown and mom canned him on her own. Good woman.

I was going to volunteer at the Salvation Army food service then I investigated and it is recommended that with my Afib I do not get out and about. So I guess I will wait until this is easing up but I am really concerned about the homeless in this shit. No one is talking about them and they have to be the most vulnerable of us all. They have no where to shelter. They have no where to die. And no one is talking about this. Big Daddy says they are spraying the migrants in India down with bleach, and now just people on the street going for food are being sprayed with bleach. What have we become.

Herding Cats

Herding Cats is indeed a strange occupation. I know this because I have had to participate in the herding.

I had to hire people to do a yard purge. This means you let a large group of people loose in the yard to find vehicles with issues and repair them. Let us say 1000 vehicles.

These people are people who for whatever reason do not have full time or sometimes even part time jobs. Because working for a sort company is an on call position. You can work up to say the top 3 to 5 people in the sort crew, but sometimes that is how big the pond is.

When I need to go into the yard you sometimes need 15 to 30 people. Just the experience of getting them all peed and into position to be trained is like stabbing your foot multiple times with a really dull screwdriver. And I swear to all that is holy, an hour later you need to send a recon team to find these people. They are all over the map.

And I can't get angry, for some of these people it may be the only job they get in a week or a month and I know they come from the local soup kitchen or homeless shelter, but WTF.

These are the people fixing the vehicles. And I am paying 30 dollars an hour per head for this shit.